The Crying Game

I can't stop crying even when I seem not to have any more tears left to cry.

Why am I always crying lately? I feel trapped, alone, hurt, ignored, unhappy and angry with life in general. I'm feeling so down now... sometimes I think I enjoy drowning in this sadness for a while. It's a way to feel some confort, even it if sounds a bit mad and contradictory.

I believe 2010 will be a year of resolution for me, I need to take care of my mental (in)sanity. Lately I just want to sleep through life, I just want to sleep and forget it hurts inside. I need to find some strenght deep inside to lift me up and enjoy the fine things in life. And I need some wishes to come true...


Should your happiness depend on others? Would it be easy for someone to make you happier? Should I depend and wait on that or should I just think about myself and look for happiness on my own? No one seems to understand what I want or need right now. And that makes me feel sad. I have tears in my eyes. :(

I really need this crying game to be over soon...